MTV Unplugged x Lauren Hill x Interlude 5
A little emotional today. The stress between school, work, and my personal life is getting to me. What makes me sad though is that a lot of times I forget to pray until I’m actually going though something. Then I feel guilty for not praying all the time and only when I need something, so I don’t. I’m ashamed that I haven’t been to church consistently in years, when I was raised going like 3 days a week. I still read my word every now and then and listen to gospel but it’s just not enough. Having that foundation and that support truly does change a person’s life. I miss my relationship with the Lord when it was easy. I’ve made so many excuses of why I haven’t really been like: not having a church home, being uncomfortable, afraid of change from this new lifestyle, etc. The longer I’m away from that foundation the weaker I become, the more lost I get, the more afraid I am. I really need to get back to that place….
I had soooo much fun in Atlanta for spring break I did not want to come back home! I didn’t realize how much I’ve missed my mom and friends until I got there. The weather is better and the people are more nice than they are here in Michigan that’s for sure. As soon as I got back to the city I wanted to leave. Now I’m back in boring ole school with boring people in stupid snow! I want to go back ):